ranting - raya

it raya!!!!!!!!!!!
RAYA!!!!!!!

RAYA
RAYA
raya

raya..

:)

aa raya. the festive season. a day to celebrate our victorious effort of fasting for a whole month n going thru rough n challenging test . aa what a day..

as been told in my last post, i dnt feel raya coming. idk. maybe something just isnt there. ow well. raya's here anyway. so lets start celebrating ! :D

day 1.

i started my day with waking up in the morning and sleeping in the mosque while the khutbah is given out. all dressed up in my bju melayu n sampin plus songkok, then sleeping in the back of the mosque. nice start :)

then got back home, start the photo session and maaf memaafkn, duit raya (cant miss this babeh ! :D:D ) and eat.

since i am already EHEM 16, i dont get that much duit raya. and SOME people has been mistaking me for a dad. yup. A FATHER OF A CHILD. nice huh? :)

Tthen after visiting some relative, i got back home n sleep. ow yeah. (in the "jim carrey" accent) i slept. n it was NICE.

woke up , eat bla bla bla
bla bla bla
bla bla..
....

well that was boring!

ow well. a post of total boringness.

this is a rant anyway. why'd u care?

haziq dont read this.

ranting - straight from my heart 1

hi. and hepi raye. :)
sooo i just got home. n while i am over there at mrsm kb, i've decided. from now on. im gonna write in my blog. n letting things out little by little. cos since no one is trying to discover this heart of mine. i guess i just let it out n let myself read it. i know it sounded a little pathetic. but then its me what do i care what you think? ive learned recently that if you let people get the better of u. then u better off dead since you've become worthless to the society n no one wants you anymore. and isnt that sad? :)

well then. let get this ranting started.

in this post, im gonna tell you something. in the next post, im gonna write something else. simple as that.

you see. 3 weeks fasting in a boarding school isnt all that fun. mrsm kb isnt that kind of place that promise you the fasting fun. to me at least. and being there actually tortured me in some way. i got a bit feverish, got gastric juice in my stomach, missing my home,frens+gf, wishing i wasnt there, intervention for addmath (i got 9% for log formative test), havent sahur for a few continuous days, being kick and stabbed deeply in the back (real deep), got me wishing for stuff i am never gonna get (not in this 10 years maybe) an many unpleasant memories. and the worst thing is. i dont feel excite for raya :(. i mean, usually when raya is near, u start to feel excited. feel happy and thankful. but then being there, with the pressure and the routine and lack of mass media to tell me that raya is coming, i felt like. raya isnt as exciting as it used to. :((

then when its time to go home. the excite aroused a little bit. since i get to go home. later my frens hp (which i depend on) got taken by the warden, im going to kelantan for a few days for raya. stil ok. i guess i still have some days. btw im going back to kelantan at 3am after this. ok2. its ok. i can deal with this.

then it got worse.

i started to dig "i gotta feeling - bep" since i do got that feeling. :) while picking me from the bus station, my dad isnt in his good mood. he cranky and sleepy u see. so eventhought he said to me earlier "nnti kite g ah jj lps amik abg since jj ttp pkul 1 n you can get ur stuff" . feeling excited, i was hoping forward for it. then my hope crushes to pieces. teeny teeny pieces of dzarah. then i felt like tears. or so i thought. then my gf.. she got touchy. ow great. its ok. its ok. i can work all of this out. i got that feeling remember? so after top up my hp and fill my tummy. off to home to achieve my feeling. then it crushes again. my gf is still touchy. i dont know why. she had that "im disappointed in you " and she say she's ok. i dont like that. i SERIOUSLY DONT LIKE IT. shes not like the herself i was hoping her to be when i talk to her. i dont want all that missing go to waste. its ok sayang. :* and guys. i contact u guys nnti tau. dont worry :) :) .

well then, while i still try to sort out my night, i hope you guys enjoyed your ramadhan. n make out the best out of your raya. love u sygg n frens n all . till my next post. bbye

there's this...

there's this thing i wanted.. a phone
there's this family i cherish.. my family
there's this girl i like.. Qila
there's this group i hang with.. uguk2 family
there's this song i wanted..
there's this school i goes to.. mrsm kb
thers's this..
and that..
but then..
all of them lie deep in my heart.
just waiting to come out.
but then again..
i cant get them all out at 1 time..
then something taclessly will happen.
so i'll just keep them neat.
deep in my heart.
and let them be explore.
by those who can.
and let them be wonder.
let them be there.
till those who can make me.
fill out these thing.
and express them.
without being jugde.
which we human tend to.
discarding n rejecting those things.
without thinking the consiquences.
the afterworks that will happen.
to the expressor.
and that is life.
there's his one quote.
"don't go with life.
grow with life."
-anonymous-

i am going back to penang! waa :((

i dont wanna go back. dont wanna. my time here is not finished yet.i wanna stay here longer. its gonna be 2 month till my next vacation. its a LONG time ok! i dont wanna.. there are still things i wanna do. people i wanna see. dont send me back to that torture collage ! waaa i dont wannaa! me dont wanna....

isk isk.. would some one hold me?

i think i need a hug.. :(

yes, im not the president ure not looking for..

when blogging. i have every right to say what i want. im not talking shit. im not insulting the president or anyone. im talking bout dissapointment. n who cares if my speeling is wrong. right? right? so i wanna talk about me not being the EMC president. so no one out there can think bad of me just because i post this, ok?! ok.. sorry for the harsh word (if u do think its harsh..)

at my school, theres a comitee called the English Motivational Comitee where its theyre job to motivate people to talk more english. and frankly, im one of them.

last thursday night. an election for the new office bearer for the EMC 09/10 has commenced. i myself, truth be told, wanted to be the president. n yes. i wanted it badly. so i try to convinced some of them to votefor me. n yet my street cred were not all that. so i didnt get the title. it get worse when i didnt get any title at all.. yeah maybe im being a title-freak but still.. i wanted a title. something that can make people know me. a reason of existence in that college. but sadly. no title for u. :(

huh.. in my debate team. im the only on without a title. my first speaker is the ict networker. he do the blog for the emc. my second speaker is the photographer for the emc while my third speaker. is the president. leaving me. nothing. i felt left out. but then. it all come back to me. its my fault that everybody else thinks im capub-ing or syok sendiri. maybe i should fix myself. have some motivation for myself. or.. i could just stay like this. being the guy that none approved of. huh...

well. thats all for my dissapointment post. i hope those who did read this wont jugde me badly. if u do. then i apologive to make u even thought of me . sorry n do visit again if u have time. gudbye now. n have a nice evening.

ps; my name is syafiq.. n thanks again..

blogging in secrets :D

hahaha. finally! with bongek out of the way, i can blog! :D hehe fyi. i am officially in the mrsm kepala batas debate team n for being a debater, i got to use the computer n open blog (secretly of cos.). well, today we should be practising for tomorrow friendly, but knowing the sloth syafiq, i blog. haha guys! if you do read this. know that i am HANDSOME! HAA! been long since i last praise my big butt! n n mothers day are coming up. so expect a card from me mom. and and and sygggg i miss you.. :* guys im going to bentong so wish me luck. n wish i dont flunk! well, thats all for now. until next time teacher is not in. later n gudnite!

ps; dude, if you do read this. well, have fun. i think.

:P

till then..

till then btho.. till then guys.. till then everybody.. nnti kte jumpe lg tau,.. till then.. so long and gud nyte...

bbye. assalamualaikum..

(ye mek aku bg salam ni..)

:)